Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Happy Birthday Lizzie Brittlee Lou







Even though we didn't celebrate her birthday on her birthday I had to atleast post happy birthday and show you her cute face. Realize I am missing her so much so that is why the many many pictures. I know I am her mama but she is so cute!!! I love her so much. She is 1 I really can't believe it the year has flown by!!! I will post more about her when I do her real birthday post when we get out of this hospital but for now I hope she puts a smile on your face.

Kayelee's hospital stay







Thursday, April 22, 2010

Kiwi


She just looks so sweet and peaceful in these pictures.

Grandma Kaye and Kayelee (Kayelee is actually named after my Mom, my sister, and I. My mom spells her name Kaye and Lee is a family name of ours and my sister's middle name is Lee, Kayelee's middle name is Ruth and that is my middle name and I am named after a great women my Great Aunt Ruth so she is named after all three girls in my family, Kaye Lee Ruth. I love her name.
Spoiled by Grandpa and Grandma
This was one of my favorite moments with Kayelee in the hospital. A family in our ward gave her that build a bear and she was feeling pretty rotten that day, this is the night the fever spiked and they found out she had pnemonia I was very worried about her. They started her on the antibiotics and then finally gave her some tylenol because the fever was so high. They took her off the fluid because her lungs were struggling but taking her of the fluids also meant the kidney's might struggle. The PICU doc came in to see if she needed to be admitted to the PICU it was just a scary night for us. Anyway after they gave her the tylenol she started to feel little bit better and remembered the kitty and she wanted to dress it up it was late and I knew I should probably have her sleep but I wanted to take that special moment to play and be with her and make her feel like a princess. so we played princess for a while Kayelee LOVED it and it will be forever engrained in my memories. She wanted to see herself in the mirror after we put the crown on her and she said I just need these things out of my nose (they had put her on oxygen because her levels were low) and I told her those did not matter that she was beautiful no matter what. It was a sweet memory with her I will never forget. Princess are made from the inside out and she is one of the strongest little princess I have ever seen. It has been amazing to me to see the strength of her spirit. Because our spirits are created from a God I believe we have strength beyond what we know, we can go through harder things then we ever thought we could. Our bodys are weak but our spirits are strong, I know that God given strength along with all the fasting and prayers have made it possible for her physical body to heal. I think all of us would be suprised at how strong we truly are when given the test.
I just thought it was cute how she sometimes sleeps with her legs crossed like that.
Grandma and Amanda, they helped so much it was so nice to have them here and Kayelee loved seeing them.
Well... Kayelee asked me mom do you want to play tic tac toe and I said sure I walked over and she had two tic tac toe grids drawn on each thigh with a black crayon. Then she was jumping all around and monitors and such were beeping and beeping because she was being so wiggly. And when bedtime rolled around she could not go to sleep. I am glad to see her spunk is back even if they won't let us go home yet.

As far as how she is doing in terms of us getting out of here her numbers are doing slightly better over time, she is improving just not really fast. They are very hopeful she will not need the plasmapheresis now but they are going to leave the catheter in there for now just in case. If she can continue to do better and not need anymore blood transfusions, and eat and drink on her own over the course of a few days I think they will let us go home. Maybe next week if we don’t have any big set backs and she can get her hemoglobin up. Her hemoglobin is hanging out right around a 6-7 and she needs to be a 10-12 so she is pretty low there and her platelets are around 30,000-40,000 and she needs to be up around 130,000-150,000. She will probably need blood at least one more time so we will see. They are actually talking about words of home for us though which is an improvement, they still say days and maybe even a week but I don't think they think months anymore. Her kidneys are doing much better and starting to function more and more on their own. The kidney levels have come down significantly which is good they are still not normal but way better then they were when we came in.

It was wonderful having my parents here I think they really lifted Kayelee's spirits and they did mine so much. The first thing Kayelee asked the next morning after they came is "did Grandma go home?" Grandma was right there by Kayelee and she said "Hi Kayelee" She was grinning ear to ear and so glad to know Grandma had stayed throughout the night. I know my parents are so busy right now on their mission getting everything ready for the upcoming treks but it was a selfless act of love for them to come and be with Kayelee and me. I had told my mom the night before as I was crying to her about Kayelee's condition that I now really knew now how much she loved me. I love Kayelee and all my children so much and would do anything for them and I think when times are a little rougher like these you realize the strong bond of love a mother has for her child and that you would do anything even give your life for that child if that was what it took. It helps me understand a little more the strong bond of love my own mother has for me and it has help me understand the strong bond of love that our Heavenly Father has for us. It is sometimes so sweetly overwhelming to know we are loved that much. There really has been some sweet learning experiences as there always is with times like these. I think I have learned a lot about love with this experience I can’t believe the outpouring of love that has come from all of you. I truly believe Kayelee would not be where she is it terms of getting better with out all your love, fasting, and many prayers. Thanks so much.

Well we will see what today brings… Hopefully good news. I will keep you posted.

Saturday, April 17, 2010

Some GREAT News!!


This is Kayelee this morning with all her fun friends. Her arm is sore for the surgery yesterday and the other arm has 2 IV's. But she is so happy to have her fun friends and we are smiling over here from all the good news.

Aubree and Ellie gave her this cute leopard, we named her sparkles, she has sparkley fur. The OR nurses dressed her all up during surgery and she was able to go with Kayelee to surgery.

Sleeping beauty

Our friend sent a craft project to do and Kayelee loved it! They were magnets and she painted them, so fun!

listening to the i pod

Well we have some good news!!! (I am so excited to say that a first this week)They wheeled her into the PICU this morning and we were waiting to get started with the phresis when the Dr. came in and said. Her labs show some imporvement in her kidneys. The BUN was down and the Creatin (which has not gone down since we have been here) was down finally, We want these levels to be down. Joe and I were so so super excited! They called Kayelee's docs and they said lets hold off on the phresis, they want to see if she can kick this on her own.YAHOOO! We are not trying to get our hopes up but we are so excited for some good news and some hope for recovery on her own, that would just be wonderful!I know the Lords hand has been in all of this but yesterdays events made it especially evident. Her surgery to put the pic line in was supposed to be at 1:50 we were wheeled down to the OR and ready to get her preped for surgery when the surgeon came in and said he had a 7-8 hour surgery that he could not delay any longer so he was going to have to push ours back to way later that night or see if his partner could do it. So we came back up into her room and waited. I called Joe to tell him what happened and told him for some reason I felt like that was a good thing, that I didn't even mind it it ended up being tomorrw just so we could give her a little more time. Well they called us a couple hours later and took us down. Little did I know those couple hours would make the difference. So we went down and they preformed the sugery by the time it was done and she was in recovery it was after 6 She was supposed to start the pheresis that evening. The Doc came in and said they decided to start it tomorrow and I was very relieved I felt really good about that. Well that gave her enough time to make a turn. When they drew labs this morning just before pheresis they showed some REALLY GOOD improvement!!! Her plateletes were even up. I very much feel the Lord help push that surgery back so Kayelee could show them her own improvement. A wonderful Miracle!!! She still has quite a road a head of her but this is the first step!!She is quite sore from the surgery and now has tubes in both arms so she doesnt want to move her body very much but her spirits are high and she is doing great. I did a little dance for her this morning after we found out the good news and I got a pretty smile from that cute face.Thank you for the many prayers and fasting. The out poring of Love has spilt over and wrapped many hugs around us and we have felt the love, prayers, fasting, thoughts everything so so much.
She has needed them and will continue to need them as she heals from this illness.
We love you all so much!!!
Also we moved rooms so we have new phone # 208-381-2889 They draw labs again at 5:00 and we will keep you posted as to how those go.

Friday, April 16, 2010

Kayelee update

Here is the update... She is still staying kind of stable, there was a drop in her hemoglobin so they gave her another blood transfusion. She really needs to start kicking this on her own and she is not. The doctor came and talked to us tonight for a long time and he was really helpful in just understanding why we still don't know what caused it. Really we may not know She has what they call Hemolytic Uremic Syndrome not caused by the most common sources, pnemonia, or ecolli (but they are not ruling those out totally yet but it is a pretty slim chance it was either of those no tests have come back positive on those). There is not a perfect test to say yes this will give us the answer especially since so many of her tests have come back negative giving us a lot of unknowns.What they do know is she is not getting better she is really just staying the same they really need to see some improvement and we really don't want to have to keep giving her blood transfusions, but she is just not keeping her blood levels up on her own.They want to do plasmapheresis tomorrow here is what it is. What is plasmapheresis?Plasmapheresis is a process in which the fluid part of the blood, called plasma, is removed from blood cells by a device known as a cell separator. The separator works either by spinning the blood at high speed to separate the cells from the fluid or by passing the blood through a membrane with pores so small that only the fluid part of the blood can pass through. The cells are returned to the person undergoing treatment, while the plasma, which contains the antibodies, is discarded and replaced with other fluids. Medication to keep the blood from clotting (an anticoagulant) is given through a vein during the procedure.What's involved in a plasmapheresis treatment?A plasmapheresis treatment takes several hours and can be done on an outpatient basis. It can be uncomfortable but is normally not painful. The number of treatments needed varies greatly depending on the particular disease and the person's general condition. An average course of plasma exchanges is six to 10 treatments over two to 10 weeks. In some centers, treatments are performed once a week, while in others, more than one weekly treatment is done.
A person undergoing plasmapheresis can lie in bed or sit in a reclining chair. A small, thin tube (catheter) is placed in a large vein, usually the one in the crook of the arm, and another tube is placed in the opposite hand or foot (so that at least one arm can move freely during the procedure). Blood is taken to the separator from one tube, while the separated blood cells, combined with replacement fluids, are returned to the patient through the other tube.The amount of blood outside the body at any one time is much less than the amount ordinarily donated in a blood bank. This is me talking again. They have seen other patients benefit from this and turn a corner and get better. We are getting a 2nd opinion on it but if we feel good about it we will probably let them do this tomorrow. When the Doctor was here tonight we asked him a lot of questions. Many of you have expressed concerns or heard of someone with similar symptoms and this is really what it was or this is how they got better etc. And we really appreciate your concerns we actually asked him most everything anyone has brought to our attention and he had a vey good response to everyone as to why it was none of those things. So just so eveyone knows they have explored and thrown around Many different options and what is going on in her body is HUS the cause is unknown at this point. We are going to go with that until she gives us cause t believe otherwise. Kayelee is in good spirits she had a couple really good laughs today as she was throwing a stuffed bunny at me and just giggling because she thought it was so funny, and also later as she and Kam's were listening to one of Kapri's funny stories of the day told by daddy (he can always tell the stories the best and make everyone laugh). It was just so fun giggling together about silly things. Those were some sweet moments. Some really fun packages sent from aunts that also really boosted Kayelee's spirits. She loved the contents and loves more the people who sent them to her. She so enjoyed her siblings and Daddy coming to visit. We are doing good and feel so much strenghth from our family and friends right now. We are also continuing to feel tender mercies daily. As Kayelee and I were sitting here in the hospital today the door opened and a complete stranger came into our room. She introduced herslef and told me she was Lana Nielson's sister in law. Lana was my Young Women's leader when I lived in Basin City(a lady I love and admire so much from my growing up years) She said she came on behalf of Lana and the Basin City Second Ward (the ward I grew up in and one Joe and I were in when we lived in Washington where we had Kayelee) she brought flowers and some sweet presents for Kayelee, and more than that a presence of Love and caring, it felt as if she represented everyone who could not be here but has fasted, prayed, thought, cared, called, etc. on behalf of Kayelee it was one of those very sweet tender mercies. We were two complete strangers with some things in common and we sat and visited for probably an hour it was so fun and sweet and it boosted my spirits. So we are doing good in here even though we are anxiously awaiting the time when we can all be home as a family again.

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Kayelee





We had some fun painting toes today!!! Kiwi loved it.
This was the day before all the happenings she was sick and fell asleep on the table just like that.
This is an update as of wednesday. I am way too tired to write the whole story so if you are coming upon this for the first time you are getting bits and pieces sorry. I am going to write a detailed post later of all that took place. I wrote this out to my family so it is kind of in letter for for that reason. but I am too tired tonight to write anything else so for tonight here you go...
Here is an update... They think (pretty sure but not 100%) right now that she has Hemolytic Uremic Syndrome you can look it up for more details if you want but basically bad toxins are bugging her kidneys and blood. Right now they are really trying to get her kidneys to do better, at least they are staying the same and not getting worse like they were. They are giving her fluids constantly to keep her flushed they just don't want to give her to much and have them stop so they are watching her urine out put pretty close. If she gets too much fluid the kidneys will stop putting out urine and then the lungs will fill with fluid. And if the kidney function gets much worse they will have to do dialysis, so we really need her kidneys to get better they are really hurting right now from all the toxins from the HUS.The reason we were hoping for them to find first e-coli bacteria and then most recently pneumonia is because they would like the cause for the Hemolytic Uremic Syndrome (HUS) to be caused by bacteria, and those are the two bacteria causes it could be. There is a very rare cause that is genetic that would be not so good. Neither is good but those two causes would be better. Today they did some tests and it doesn't look like pneumonia and it doesn't look like e-coli either. So that is not good but they are still hoping to find that bacteria and so are we. They are waiting for some more test results tomorrow that will hopefully be more conclusive I will try to send an e-mail out if there is a big update. She did poop late tonight (hooray!!!) (I don't often cheer for poop but I did tonight and Kayelee was so proud of herself she said "now we can go home" She was hoping that was her ticket out of here it was cute. The poop was not at all diarrhea but if they could find some bacteria in that, that would be so good. They sent it away for testing so we will see. Her temperature was a bit elevated tonight but they think she has a UTI and they are leaving it untreated because the antibiotics will harm the kidneys more so we are hoping the infection will not cause fever. It came down a little bit so let’s hope.She has had 3 half pints of blood put into her little body since we have been here but she has not had to have any more today so that is good she is holding her own a bit so hopefully that will continue to be the case. Mostly she is staying stable witch is way better than worse but we would love start seeing some improvement.They are just walking some fine lines as to what is best and they are trying very hard to find the cause of the HUS and get her kidneys functioning better.I just wanted to THANK everyone so so very much for their fasting and prayers we have felt them both Kayelee and I. Kayelee has been so strong she shed her first tears tonight when they had to poke her again for more blood, she asked me to love on her while they did it and she dried them right up after they were done. Her little spirit is so sweet and she still sends a little spunk my way every once in a while and I love it. We love you and thanks again for your many, prayers, fasting, calls, concern, everything. We feel so blessed to have such an amazing family!!I hate to ask for one more thing but Lizzie came down with something today and is feeling pretty sick herself (nothing like Kayelee) but she has a fever and is throwing up she was feeling rotten tonight and Joe is trying to juggle all the other kids and work when he can so we hope her illness Is fast so maybe a few prayers her way would be good to so she doesn’t get worse and it makes things easier for her and Joe and the other kids. She has had kind of shock with this whole thing as I have never spent a night away from her and she is still nursing, so things are kind of tough for her right now too. I do have to say Joe has been absolutly amazing he has taken care of the other kids so well along with trying to get some work done. I asked him today if the kids have been keeping up with their homework and they haven't skipped a beat. He is such an amazing Daddy and husband. I can't imagine what my house looks like right now:) but my kids are being well taken care of I love being able to know that while I am here with Kayelee.Thank you guys again we love you so so much!!!!




Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Easter

It was Easter weekend when Kyle got baptized so we got to celebrate it with my parents in Wyoming, we loved it.



please excuse the bed hair and just look at the cute little one:)

Decorating eggs with Grandma

Kyle's Baptism

Kyle turned 8 in March. That is a big birthday in our family, when you turn 8 you get to be baptized a member of our church (LDS). Because my parents are out on a mission we got to have him baptized in the sweet water river (this is the river the pioneers crossed many times on their trek to Utah) It has a lot of meaning and we felt it would be special if he wanted to get baptized there, of course he did. It is still very cold in Wyoming in April but we didn't want to put it off to long so we headed out there. It was cold the whole weekend and there was even snow on the ground but not once did Kyle complain or ask if he had to do it. He was so brave and courageous and even though it was in the 30's with a wind chill of below that he was still baptized. It was an amazing experience for our whole family, one we will never forget. Kyle is such an amazing boy, he is such a natural leader, he loves his 5 girls, and his Dad, he excel's in school and sports. He is thoughtful and kind and he is very sensitive of me. I love him so much and I feel so blessed to have him in our family.



I think it was around 38 degree's outside with the wind was blowing so so hard you can see it from Joe's tie. It was cold.


Grandma Carol and Amanda with Kyle
Grandma and Grandpa Freeman
All the missionaries who came

Yes there was snow on the banks of the river bbbuuurrrr!

Grandma made hime a very cool blanket, he loves it!
Martin's Cove
The kids love the mule, this is how my parents get around at the Cove. We of course took it for a spin.


Monuments of the rescuers who came to aid the pioneers in their time of need. They have monuments there to honor them.